Carnival of Thoughts

My mind is a carnival.
There are way too many places
and stuff in my mind.
Should I think about this
or that, you can’t decide
where you want to go.

My inside carnival can’t
focus on the outside.
My thought carnival opens
up new rides all the time.
When I want to leave my mind
and let it out.
I like to draw my imagination
or get distracted with
something else like TV.

In the end,
the carnival mind
is always open.

My thoughts feel like a blender
of thoughts that don’t exactly
go together.

My first ingredient I put is
“I have potential’ as well as
“It’ll get better.”

Then I realize I have the wrong
recipe and accidently mixes:
“You’re a horrible person, and
deserve everything that
happened to you.”

I try to fix it but its slightly too late.
“You can do this! If you actually
get up and do something in your
life. You’re confident! for someone
like you!”

At the end it’s a combination
of slop that don’t taste that good.
I’ll retry tomorrow.

When I have the ball, my brain
sometimes thinks “Shoot the ball
you have good long shots!!!”
Or my thoughts are “Pass the ball,
you’re not Ronaldo.”

If I miss, I sometimes think,
“At least it was worth the try”
or “Don’t shoot again, pass
the ball instead.”

When I think that
I breathe and tell myself, “Its
okay, the games not over yet.”
I think “What am I good at?”
“Free kicks or shooting.”
It doesn’t matter because
I’m not the best, I play for fun.

My brain is like a bubble.
Sometimes there are positive
bubbles like “You’re really
good at this!” or…

“You’re going to succeed!”

or …”Wow, you’re so cool!”

But… Sometimes those positive bubbles pop…

And then negative thoughts
appear like…

“You’re worthless!

You’ll never be helpful! Quit trying!”

I hate those bubbles! So, then I
draw and pop all the negative
bubbles. When I pop all over them
I feel much better. Like …

“Whew! Don’t think that!

You’re good and you’re worthy!”

Sometimes my thought key
let’s me unlock new ideas.
Sometimes loses hope, to find
itself, maybe just fitting in
with locked doors.

When the keys feel lost,
sometimes loses its colors.
Maybe the key needs to shine
like stars to find it.

Music helps it to unlock
new paths, maybe new
charm to it.

A marker has thoughts too.
Thoughts that are good and bad.
Good thoughts like being with friends,

those thoughts are a
brand-new marker.

Some thoughts like having no
school or being summer break,
make the marker feel it’s getting rest.

But then there’s bad thoughts
like running out of energy
or being in a bad mood
or people being mean
it makes the marker feel
like its being used by
a little kid.

Or there’s those thoughts that
are calming like coloring, taking
a nap or listening to music.

Those thoughts are the marker
resting after being used for hours.

My water faucet drip drops
like thoughts encased
in water.

The distance between the
water faucet and the floor
of the floor of the sink is
twice the times it takes me
to form a thought and
apply it.

When the handle to the faucet
is completely turned on, my
thoughts are rushing and
gushing cause my brain is
on the roll.

Positive thoughts
of my branch are

I woke up saying,
“This is going to be
a good day.”

or sometimes I can
wake up energetic.
Also winning every
game, not losing.

But sometimes
my negative thought
branches are:
not wanting any homework
due to me being too tired/busy.

Not losing cause then
I get upset.

Sometimes not
waking up on time.

Branch activities that
can help are:

Playing a sport,
like soccer.

or sometimes even
moving a bunch.

Laying down,
listening to music
and sleeping.

My brain is like a rainfall.
It makes positive thoughts
nice, peaceful, and cool.

It makes my negative thoughts
like muddy puddles for my
thoughts to go away.

Hearing the rain drops make
me relax.

Feeling the cool rain drops falling
from the sky, makes me feel calm.

My thought gum makes thoughts
like I’m colorful! or I have such
flavor or I give people joy!

But sometimes it has thoughts
like I’m losing my flavor!
or I’m too loud!
or I’m losing my color!

But when I go for a walk
or talk to someone or
play a sport I get my color
back. Or I become even
more flavorful or joyful.

My dark bright sky sometimes
brings back memories of a loved
one and makes me sad.
Mosquitos bite me while I lay
on the green grass.

But sometimes my sky shines
like an aurora sky.
We see funny looking stars,
it brings back good memories.

My dark sky sometimes has
shooting stars lighting up the
sky with beautiful colors.

I feel the wind blowing on my
face, while I lay on the cozy grass.

My thought speaker makes
positive thoughts like You 
speak nice, your voice sounds 
cool and smooth, you speak   
fine and sound calming.

But sometimes it makes thoughts
like You speak so loud, your voice
sounds like a broken record 
player, and you speak like a baby.

When that happens, I find myself
doing stuff like making bracelets,
coloring, and playing with my
nee-dons.

Another thing, I like to say
positive things about myself like,
You have nice hair, you’re smart,
you have nice eye color, and
you know how to believe in yourself.

Sometimes my thought flower
makes me feel like I’m blooming,
that I’m the prettiest flower
people will ever see.

Sometimes my flower
makes me have bad feelings
like I’m the ugliest flower
in the world, that I DONT smell
good, that I’m full of dirt, that
I look like an ugly dirty flower.

When the sun shines so bright
on me, it makes me feel pretty
and beautiful like every other
flower.