It starts
with a suffocating feeling
Like something is blocking your throat
And your lungs are going to burst
Next comes
The nausea
The sickening feeling
Like you have to throw up
The pain settles in your body
Rising from your feet
To your head
Until the pain is all you can feel
Your heart will beat
Faster than it ever has
sounding like a jackhammer
Feeling like it’s going to jump out your chest
Your stomach feels
Like a million bees are buzzing
Around inside
Wanting to get out
Your mind screams to stop
It wants to shut down
Never wanting to wake up again
Wanting all of this to end
On the inside
It is a raging war
Explosions of emotions
And a million screams of agony
On the outside
Is a small smile
And a pretty laugh
A simple conversation
Everything is okay
Nothing wrong
Nothing out of place
You still need to talk
Take the lead
Continue the conversation
Say something
Don’t just stay quiet
Make sure nothing escapes your mind
Don’t let them know anything
Let them live in ignorance
What they don’t know never hurts them
Doesn’t matter if they will never know
That nothing is ever perfectly fine
Until everything bubbles over
And finally escapes
But they won’t know for a long time
Nothing will over flow
Nothing will show
Everything is perfectly fine