Brett Foster

Wheaton, IL

 

 

 

Ten Definitions Approximating Grief

                       

            -- for Frank Hogrebe

 

It’s about to be born of the voice, the hysterical caller recorded

            on the emergency line.

For this reason convenience stores are dangerous, often robbed

            despite the hint of moonlight.

And the man slowly smoking that cigarette at the darkened rest stop

            off the interstate—he himself

maintains its stoic version: sparks expire across the parking lot

            as the heavy hours pass.

It haunts the moments before work, the days victimized by violent

weather, the one-room nights.

Through the thin wall Pico della Mirandola tries to deny its existence,

            says Man, being the center of hierarchy,

is the molder of his own destiny. It suppresses the sound rain makes.

            It applauds the minor notes,

finds residence in the keys of the composer’s final piano concerto.

            The theologian who accused                                                                

Tertullian of possessing “extreme and rigorous views” has never known it.

            The three-legged dog defeats its

greatest manifestation, and though absent in Hegel’s Phenomenology of Spirit,

            the director of Special Persons’ Camp

sees it always, to see it fall away—farmhouse, roadside morning

            glory—and says there and there and there.